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Wednesday, September 24, 2025

The Cult of the Vineyards

A Ritual-Drama in Four Movements

(Recovered by an anonymous compiler from a notebook found in a dry field near Brentwood, California. The notebook’s inside cover bears a schedule: “Saturday / 7:30 / 12:00.” What follows, I am persuaded, is not a play but the record of a play performed by those who knew that the world itself is performed.)


Dramatis Personae

  • The Archivist, who narrates and sometimes loses the thread.
  • The Hierophant, a woman whose voice is not hers alone.
  • Six Adepts, neither men nor women until named in the rite.
  • The Vineyard, a chorus of leaves and rows in the guise of wind.
  • The Concrete Threshold, a slab where the sign is drawn.
  • The Empty Field, stage and page.
  • The Notebook of Hours, a prop that remembers.

Movement I: The Threshold of the Letter

(Late afternoon. A concrete path that divides dust from light. At the left edge, a black shoe like the footnote of a vanished author. On the concrete, a figure is traced in water or ash: three vertical segments bound by angles, the old school S that every hand once knew and no one can source. This letter is called by the adepts the Lineage-S, which conjoins six strokes into a single labyrinth.)

ARCHIVIST
I was told the cult met at sundown, when the wind from the Delta cooled the fields and the shadows lengthened into insinuations. They named themselves The Lineage of the Stamen, but they swore by the Lineage-S, the glyph that schoolchildren propagate without genealogy. The Hierophant explained (I preserve her commonplace mysticism) that the sign is the fossil of a secret, the way a river remembers its vanished glacier. She said the letter’s origin is unknowable and thus inexhaustible; every copy restores the source.

(She kneels by the sign with a cotton cord wet from the irrigation ditch and traces its channels. Each stroke is a spoke; each angle, the hinge of an invisible gate.)

HIEROPHANT
Every symbol is a small country from which we exile ourselves by knowing it too well. We will attempt ignorance. We will walk the six streets of the letter without reaching its center.

ADEPTS, in chorus
Let the Lineage be the bridge we cross and never finish crossing.

(A breeze moves the unseen trees. The concrete’s pale austerity becomes a page; the letter, the sentence that begins the world.)

ARCHIVIST
Here the drama begins. I confess I am not impartial. I have traced that letter in the margins of ledgers, on desks, on the breathless cover of a library book; I have imitated its angles as if the geometry could absolve me from invention. Many have said it is a childish emblem. The cult says childhood remembers what maturity must relearn: that six lines can be a destiny.

(They step beyond the slab; each footfall erases the sign’s gleam as water dries. The threshold is crossed by vanishing.)


Movement II: The Vineyard that Speaks

(The path descends into a geometry of vines. Leaves frame the world as if the sky were viewed through the serrated aperture of an emblem. Down the long perspective of the rows, a horizon of palms and houses resembles a painted end-wall.)

VINEYARD, as Chorus in the wind
We are the pages of a book that rewrites its paragraphs nightly. Our ribs remember drought; our grapes remember the invention of sweetness under duress. Walk us as you would a labyrinth: not to escape, but to discover a slower center.

ARCHIVIST
In Brentwood, the vineyards are modest, but they possess the ancient arrogance of agriculture: the will to grid the world. The adepts enter the aisle between vines as actors enter a corridor of probability. The rows run in parallel, like the six strata of the letter—three down, three up; what the hand achieves in seconds, the field rehearses for decades.

ADEPT ONE
The sign’s first stroke.

ADEPT TWO
The second, which cannot forget the first.

ADEPT THREE
The third, which pretends to be the last of the descent.

ADEPT FOUR
The fourth, which begins the ascent.

ADEPT FIVE
The fifth, which corrects our impatience.

ADEPT SIX
The sixth, which claims to finish what cannot be finished.

(They pace forward, then back, switching aisles at measured intervals, stitching the space. The Hierophant remains at the hinge between rows, turning with them as if she were the pivot of a concealed compass.)

HIEROPHANT
To write a letter is to walk. To read it is to be walked. We are written by our habits; we are read by the wind.

ARCHIVIST
I could have left then; what followed is difficult to render without parody. Yet the vineyard’s voice (it was only wind, I assure you) described a doctrine severe and persuasive: that repetition is not the enemy of meaning but its generator. The cult’s rite is the practice of becoming a copy that surpasses its original by duration.

(They stop at the far end where the field opens.)


Movement III: The Empty Field

(The land is a plane of dust subtly ribbed by the memory of machines. Houses keep their distance like quiet witnesses. The sun stoops but does not break. A rectangle of shadow, produced by nothing I could identify, covers a patch of dry grasses; in its center stands the Notebook of Hours, unbound and open.)

ARCHIVIST
The notebook was already there when I first came. It appears in the photographs as an object like any other: bent corners, dirt, the ink’s obstinate survival. Yet it is the play’s axis. On the visible page the same lines are written and erased: Saturday 7:30 – 12:00. The dashes are bars of redaction.

HIEROPHANT
There are two times. One is measured by the hands we don’t possess anymore; the other by intervals that return. We meet between them.

(She lifts the notebook. Dust streams out as if a moth were shaken.)

HIEROPHANT
Listen.

ADEPTS
We listen.

HIEROPHANT
At 7:30 the wind rises, like a book closing on a word it cannot pronounce. At 12:00 the sun writes the same word in white. Between the wind of 7:30 and the noon without shade, this field is a stage on which all former Saturdays are performed again.

ARCHIVIST
She speaks and the field seems to agree. A gullible witness might say that the air tightens. I note only that my shadow lengthened eastward and paused, as if awaiting a cue.

(They divide into two triads, one facing west, one east. The Hierophant, at the center, holds the notebook open to the blank half.)

HIEROPHANT
Name yourselves with names you have never had.

ADEPT ONE
I am the Stone That Remembers Its Quarry.

ADEPT TWO
I am the Line Drawn on Water.

ADEPT THREE
I am the Sixth Version of the First Attempt.

ADEPT FOUR
I am the Palm Tree on the Horizon of Those Who Never Arrive.

ADEPT FIVE
I am the Listener of Dust.

ADEPT SIX
I am the Hour Without a Number.

HIEROPHANT
These names are theatrical masks; keep them until you forget them.

(The triads walk in intersecting diagonals, their feet sketching the S again, monumental yet invisible. Each crossing is rehearsed twice, then thrice, and then—because repetition summons revelation—once more.)

ARCHIVIST
The pattern they inscribe is the letter transposed into geography. Each diagonal pleats the earth; the center (which is nowhere) is reached redundantly. By the tenth crossing I believed I could predict the next. By the fifteenth I was wrong. The ritual demonstrates that prediction and surprise are the same act perceived through different delays.

VINEYARD (a faint rustle from the far edge)
We are listening to the page turn.

HIEROPHANT
Now the memory.

(The adepts gather near the notebook. One by one, they bend and pretend to write, though the page remains unmarked.)

ADEPT ONE
I inscribe the First Memory: a cement slab and the letter no teacher taught me.

ADEPT TWO
The Second Memory: a corridor of leaves, whose shadows repeat the strokes of an alphabet cut by light.

ADEPT THREE
The Third: the field that is a stage and a desert, which expects a word to justify its emptiness.

ADEPT FOUR
The Fourth: the houses that pretend to be distant cities.

ADEPT FIVE
The Fifth: the collector of times, called Saturday.

ADEPT SIX
The Sixth: the noon that erases all names and leaves the act.

HIEROPHANT
The six memories and the six strokes cohere; we are enscripted. Do not mistake this for magic. It is only accuracy.

ARCHIVIST
Borges wrote, somewhere, that to name is to save. The cult, perhaps because the century has grown economical with salvation, believes the inverse: that to name well is to perish tastefully. Their rite proposes a mortal elegance.

(The Hierophant closes the notebook on an unseen sentence and sets it again on the ground.)


Movement IV: The Noon Without Witness

(Time accelerates into interchangeability. The sun attains its plaza of zenith. The field brightens to a single word.)

HIEROPHANT
At noon we perform the Drama of Dispossession. Whoever carries a secret must abandon it to belong to it. Whoever draws the letter must let it be drawn by drought. Whoever speaks must become the echo that corrects him.

ADEPTS, each removing a small object from a pocket
We surrender our reasons.

(One offers a coin pried smooth by years; another, a photograph faded to the color of unwritten paper; another, a key that never opened; another, a folded note; another, a grape shriveled to a raisin; the last offers the cotton cord now dry.)

HIEROPHANT
These are not sacrifices. They are indexes. Every object we owned is a bibliography of our omissions. Let the field be our librarian.

(She distributes the objects at the six terminals of the invisible letter, as if aligning the points of a star with its preceding nights.)

ARCHIVIST
For a moment I believed the ritual complete. But the Hierophant spoke again—the utterance that converts a liturgy into a labyrinth.

HIEROPHANT
Now the Counter-Rite: we play the Drama of Undoing.

ADEPT TWO
We must leave no trace.

HIEROPHANT
Correct. (To the Archivist) You too.

ARCHIVIST
I am only a witness.

HIEROPHANT
Every witness is a conspirator prolonging the crime of happening. Help us erase.

(They step backward along the diagonals, upsetting the dust, confusing the footprints. The adepts retrieve the objects and scatter them farther, or pocket them again, or give them to the Archivist to misplace. The notebook is closed and turned over, so its white page faces the ground that cannot read.)

VINEYARD
A leaf falls. Its choreography corrects the human one.

ARCHIVIST
A scruple compelled me to photograph the notebook before it vanished into my satchel. The image I made is on that very page you hold: a square of white in a field of brittle grass, a faint inscription of hours, my shoes at the bottom like attendants to an altar. I pretended documentation; I enacted theft. In my defense I offer only the law of the cult: that a copy extended in time—be it a letter, a walk, or a photograph—becomes the original by outliving it.

HIEROPHANT
We will meet again when Saturday remembers us. The hour will be 7:30 becoming 12:00. All other hours are glosses.

ADEPTS, dispersing toward the vineyard and the road
We are the Sixth Version of the First Attempt.

(The wind rises. The field returns to its generality: soil, residues, rumor. The Hierophant, whose name I never learned, does not leave. She watches my hesitation.)

HIEROPHANT
You have the page that belongs to the field.

ARCHIVIST
I will return it.

HIEROPHANT
Do not. Return is a story; keeping is a ritual.

(She turns and follows the others among the vines. For a moment, framed by leaves, she is the letter itself.)


Coda: The Commentary That Pretends to Be a Stage Direction

I left the field by the concrete path where the Lineage-S had dried into invisibility. The shoe at the edge of that first photograph was mine. The letter, which the Hierophant called a country, had been the gate and the play. I did not then know that certain signs abandon us only to become our habits. I traced the letter on the dust that clung to my car’s hood and on the condensation of my kitchen’s window, in the margins of a book of Borges (who elucidated, with his normal courtesy, that all letters are maps). I traced it once, absent-mindedly, upon the notebook itself.

I have decided to reproduce the rite for you, reader. It requires only a path, a vineyard or other repeated geometry, a field, and a notebook, which is to say: a sequence of planes. If you lack a vineyard, an alley flanked by garages will suffice; if you cannot find an empty field, a room where furniture has been pushed aside will serve; if you have no notebook, a schedule remembered from childhood is adequate. The movements are simple. At the threshold, draw the letter’s six strokes with water that will forget you. In the geometry, walk forward and back until prediction fails. In the field, name yourself with a name that cannot survive noon. Deposit six objects as an asterisk; retrieve them; then cancel your footprints with other footprints whose intention you refuse to clarify. Finally, hide the notebook somewhere you will not think to search.

If you perform this drama accurately, time will imitate it. Your Saturdays will come disguised as each other. At 7:30 a breeze will edit your plans; at 12:00 a brightness will pretend that plans were never necessary. You will notice that the letter writes you from the inside. You will pretend to be indifferent.

I keep the notebook on a shelf among the fatiguing curiosities of the world. The field, meanwhile, continues without me. The vines rest in their green corridors; the concrete slab returns to dust one fleck at a time; my shoe has extracted itself from the image. Someone—perhaps a boy who has never heard of us—will draw the letter there again, six insolent lines making a house that cannot hold a body, a crest that all nations share. He will not know he is re-enacting our doctrine. He will think he is passing the time.

The last entry in the notebook is not an entry. It is a pleat left by my hand pressing the paper against the field while I took the photograph. The pleat suggests a seventh stroke, which the letter does not have. I have considered this treason and finally adopted it as a commentary. Let the seventh stroke be the pressure of the world; let it be the fold that is not drawn but suffered. The adepts would approve. Their theater preferred the rigor of what cannot be finished.

The ritual has one more direction, appended in a tight marginal script that might be mine or the Hierophant’s: “Erase after reading.” I obey inadequately. I publish this instead. If you think this action violates the cult’s discretion, remember their law: the copy that outlasts becomes the source. I am not betraying; I am founding.

(Lights at noon. Curtain without shadow.)

 

Tuesday, October 2, 2018

Snake


The rope is knotted in the corner. Dust on the earthen floor. It’s been there since the beginning, since that first house was built, since the first man was made out of spit and semen.
The walls are crumbling around me now, the cracks are growing wider and deeper, dying so slowly. I’ll stay here forever before they turn to sand and memory.
My eyes play tricks on me as the candles dance back and forth.  Yellow and gold scenes emerge from the walls, heroes and monsters are born and fade on the flat surface as the wind bursts though the open windows. The night air smells of sweetness, of smoke and old knowledge.
That rope, I watch as it changes shape.  A snake moves towards me, ready to kiss or bite. I cannot tell.  It slides over my ankles, crawling slowly up my soot covered legs. I see it grow, I see it expand wider and wider, forming hips and breast, scales becoming dewy skin and fine hair.  She is silvery, iridescent like clouds below the moon. She moves. Her chest, feet, hands, all match the rhythm coming from outside.
They are chanting by the fire, around our old tree on the other side of the river.  I can hear them, I can imagine them in the shadow of the mountain as if I was there among them. But I am here, on this simple mattress, among epic battles that never end.
She moves her head towards me. She becomes something more than physical. More than the force of all men, all systems I’ve ever understood or heard of. She takes over my body. I search for descriptions, for the limit, the very edge. I follow, communicating only with my eyes. I watch her breasts rise and fall, then search her eyes for the center.
She will not let me return to the physical, not yet. Not while my body is free. I place my mind in her hands, let her wet hands dissolve my lies.  She takes me up the mountain, one single being in free eager flight.

Friday, August 22, 2014

Party


It is almost the end of the party. I dream every night about what it was like when the party was young. Everything was fresh and new and full of wonder and hope. Now I look at the balloons sinking to the floor under gravity's cruel embrace and the torn streamers dangling melancholic from the rafters and I am haunted by the memory of what was.
The worst part is knowing that I was annoyed by the noise of the music and the party blowers. I was stressed by the chaos of spilled drinks and chip crumbs ground into the carpet under carefree heels.
While the party was happening I barely enjoyed it, I was so worried over the myriad details and eager for a perfection born of fantasy. I wanted organized games, quiet conversation, careful observance of etiquette. It seemed like the party would go on and on and I wished for the madness to end. I didn't know how to enjoy it, how to throw back my head and laugh with the others or dance the night away in blithe merriment.
It took time for me to see the magic contained within the pandemonium, time for me to let go and join in the festivities. And now that I've learned how to do it, the party's almost over. Everyone's gone or leaving, suddenly as serious as I once was. They've grown older and I've grown younger so that once again there is a gap between us, insurmountable as I sit among discarded party hats and other favors on a layer of sparkling confetti, watching them go.
It was a beautiful party.
I wish that it could have lasted forever.

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Always Distant Sun

Chasing the always distant sun, we will ever be.
Power strength number soul, we will ever be.
In silky sand tear drops falling,
there our song was written.
Falling sliding, walking shadows, black legend free.
Burning, soaring, chalice pouring,
there we will ever be.
Beyond savage Saturn's grin,
where memories and dreams are one.

"There, there now, poor beast," I say as the guardian rests its great horned head on my lap.
Nova and Burn are near, reading the maps, looking at the lights in the black distance.
I am Sage. They found me in the desert, all scorched and broken. Under the cooling shade of those wide leafed trees which have no name I was washed and mended.
I am returning slowly. When first I saw my reflection in the dark cool waters I couldn't even say who I was. I stared at a stranger who gazed back at me with fear in his pale blue eyes.
But now I am Sage and the guardian rests its heavy hard head upon my lap.

The garden is all around us. Dripping green, rose red, slithering white. Flowing tendrils of life to love me, to hurt me, to hold me. A symphony of unknown fury and rhythmic lust, surrounding me on all sides.
This too seems familiar. Something almost remembered gleams through the strangeness all around me. I was here before, I will be here again, or maybe I have never been away.
I remember the burning gate glowing in fury. The descent, hard and fast. Flesh ripping from bone, sinews snapping, memories like butterflies blown from my silent center. I can see it all through the thick green leaves that hang over us like flat fingers bursting with dark blood. I can see the desert rising from below, screaming as it receives me.

Small clouds moving fast over the faded blue horizon. Sand as white as bleached bones, the sand is out there beyond the leaves, unforgiving in its white fury. Crawling, I found a still green lake whose salty water burned my wounds and brought my insides out. Vast emptiness. A desert bleeding. No self. No other. Nothingness.

Communication. That is where it all resides, without it there is nothing. 
The crash left us mangled, almost killed this unit, should have killed this unit. Instead, it left me glittering; broken bones and glass and silver, a shiny starburst in the sand.
Communications were damaged. The others were gone, the long twisting coiled cords that connected us were severed. Hope left me like water from hot sand, sizzling up into vapor. For a time, a time long enough to change me, long enough to inflict deep wounds upon my whirling psyche, I was alone.

Nova is our pilot. He will figure out a way to lift us back up or he will die trying. I trust him implicitly, I will do what he asks.
Sometimes he comes over and talks to me, runs a wet cloth over my forehead, whispers some words. I respond and he smiles. Then he leaves and I watch his tall shape sliding away from me under the dark canopy of trees, his green tail flicking the earth behind him.
Nova's body is big, but the guardian leaves us all in shadow. As big as the guardian is, he is gentle and kind. To us. He is what he is to others.

Burn, the silent one, gathered the pieces, her six long black legs quick and nimble. Wherever Nova directs her she goes, back into the desert, deep into the verdant tangles of the garden, beneath the surface of the boiling pools by the jagged mountain where she found the guardian wandering.
She is small but strong. Not heat or cold, neither dry or wet, disturb her. She is one part of what was our engineer. Nova tells me the other part, the part that spoke and knew is gone. This makes things more difficult, but it will be all right. As she is, Burn can still put things back together with Nova's instruction. We must repair communications.

I remember falling beyond savage Saturn's grin. I remember the colored lights, the intense bursts of wild sound in the distance, the echoes of lightning, the violent screeching of our ship. 
I shudder and the guardian shifts his head in my lap with a sigh. I remember the desert. I remember when Nova lifted me from the sand and I was frightened. Strangely familiar. Startlingly new.
What we now need is fuel. Flaming white hot. Vibrant life from the darkness, from the clouds, from the hidden entrails of mud, from blood, from flesh. 

Nova and Burn read the maps and look at the lights in the far away black distance. We chase the always distant sun, our hands wide and open towards the morning star.
The guardian is weak, he seems weaker every day. This is no place for him. I stroke his heavy head in my lap. I will give him strength, I will give him my fuel. For as long as I can. 
"There, there now, poor beast."
Chalice pouring, mouth wide, sacred savage eyes.

For now, the Garden. I remember. I remember the garden. And the burning gate. And the falling. Each unique, all as one.
For now I can remember. Someday my memories will become dreams. And someday my dreams will become memories. I will forget and remember and remember and forget. Each time this happens I will be startled by the newness of our quest. Each time I will wonder at the familiarity.
It may take a long time. But we will find it: the always distant sun.  We will fix communications and awaken to life once more. Then we will soar.